Tuesday, June 19, 2007

just feeling sad...

Just a few moments ago, I was in a perfectly good mood. That was until I checked my myspace account. After looking around through some friends, I came across someone's profile that saddened me and really touched my heart. She is a mother of a 2 year old girl who has (to put simply) a brain tumor. The little girl is too young to have the surgery as it is way too risky. This little girl died last night...strange that I don't even know these people and I am sitting here bawling my eyes out. Maybe it's because I am a mom and I could never, and would never want to, imagine losing a child of my own. My son is everything to me.
I know that God has a plan for everything, but it still doesn't keep me from asking "why?" Why take such an innocent child, why make the parents hurt so deeply? My heart goes out to the parents that have to experience the loss of a child. It is an experience that I pray I will never have to endure.
Sorry for the depressing blog, I just needed to express myself. It's amazing how becoming a parent is the most joyous thing in the world, but at the same time it is the most terrifying as well.

2 comments:

witness2miracles said...

What a terribly devastating thing. I too wonder why some things happen like this, I'm reminded of my friend Josh in high school who was the sweetest, most caring person toward everyone he met. He always strove to include everyone and had a genuine love for people. He ended up dying at age 19 of leukemia. I didn't understand it at all, yet somehow God makes good things come out of the worst times in life. Josh's life truly drew others nearer to God. I still think of him often and his unwavering dedication to the Lord through his suffering and all the chemo he went through remind me to be faithful even when my circumstances seem so difficult at the moment. Who can really understand the mind of God? I'm so glad He is in control no matter the horrible things we may endure in, I've seen Him give beauty where ashes have once been multiple times over in my life.

Belle Etoile said...

It's hard for me, too, to comtemplate such things... I have often prayed that God never puts me in that position, but I know deep down it could happen. God gets us through our trials, though, however hard.

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